As a full-time working woman and
part-time pumping mom, I'll be the first to admit that pumping
breastmilk for my baby can be a bit inconvenient. But then again,
babies can be a bit inconvenient.
When I was originally nervous about whether I'd be able to keep
up, another pumping mom at my job gave me her perspective.
At the time, I was exhausted and hugely pregnant. It was while
making my regularly scheduled waddle to the bathroom that I bumped
into Amy. She'd been taking over the ladies room of our small
loft office space for about eight months to pump milk for her
son. Some of the younger employees would smirk when they saw her
with her pump bag and a door sign that simply said "Bathroom
in use for 15 minutes." She took it all in quiet good humor.
"Amy," I said, "I gotta be honest with you. I
don't know if I'm up for that pumping thing."
She stopped, and with a warm smile of the maternal sisterhood,
gave me what was likely my first lesson in parenthood.
"Sharon, let me tell you, I don't like that I have to leave
my baby during the day and I do feel guilty about it. But three
times a day, I take 15 minutes to do something for him. Something
that I can do even though I'm not with him. I sit, think about
nothing but him and produce the perfect food for him. Then when
I get home, I drop my bags and reach for him. We nurse to re-connect
in a way that we probably wouldn't if we were formula feeding.
The pumping is for him and for me."
She hugged me and we both had a short little "hormonal moment"
thinking about our respective babies. I thought a lot about what
she said, because it made perfect sense. As it happened, my first
real lesson in parenthood was about listening to your heart. My
heart said that I had to give pumping an honest try.
Later on, she and another mother at work organized a group to
pitch in for what I now think is the perfect shower gift for a
working mother: a Medela Pump In Style.
I've been pumping for awhile now, and it has actually gone smoother
than I imagined. Three times a day, I now take over our ladies
room with my door sign and pump bag. I sit, relax, and think about
my baby. Regardless of what kind of workday I have, I go home
happy with the gentle heft of the bottles of breastmilk in my
cooler bag to remind me that I accomplished something important
today.
I make my long commute home, walk in the door, drop my bags,
and reach for my baby girl. We baby-waltz to the couch where she
nurses herself into a stupor. I watch her rolling her eyes in
ecstasy and relax for a few minutes, awash in the stress-reducing
hormones that nursing releases. I still hate leaving her, but
I love coming home to nurse her.
If you haven't decided about whether or not pumping is for you,
please think about it. You may find that it's the one thing that
keeps you sane while trying to juggle the incredible load of full-time
mother and full-time employee. Remember, the saddest thing is
in giving up before you even try.
10/2001 |